closet at home (my photography)
Ever felt like your world is slowly crumbling?
This is one of those times...
Last week I was nonfunctional due to stress, anxiety, worry, fear, life.
It is so hard to be a full time student taking 19 units, including a musical, and applying for millions of different colleges. There are doctors appointments I have to keep and remember, homework I have to turn in on deadlines, monologues and scripts I have to memorize and friends I need to keep and family I need to please. I am not writing so you can take pity on me, but merely as a way to make all this mess in my head come out into a solid paragraph of words on here. This way instead of having all these to do lists flutter about in my mind emerging, flying away and then randomly coming back again... I can have it written down in a physical state. I need to go to voice lessons and rehearsals. I need to start turning in my music theory homework and my english homework and god knows what else. I have to visit an observatory... pronto before it gets cloudy. I have to apply apply apply for all of these schools so I have a good future, and so I end up doing what I love, performing, but I want to be in the big leagues. I also have to catch up on doctor who before my wonderful boyfriend dies of impatience, and I need to catch up on Once upon a time simply because I need to know what happens. I don't know where I would make time for that however. And then there is study time, which has always and will always be so very very very difficult. On top of all this I have to remember birthdays, and holidays and I need to be creative because that is who I am. And I work too, making time for my job... 0.o
Well I think right now I just need to go to sleep... but I need to start organizing myself. Knowing due dates better, writing things down in a planner, post it notes need to become my new best friend. And I think the biggest thing that will help me is to breathe... and tell myself it is going to be okay. I really don't hear that enough, that it's going to be okay... it sounds foreign on my tongue.
so it starts with sleep and a new day
<3 goodnight <3